Weigh-In Wednesday: Week 10

It's Weigh-In Wednesday Week 10!!!  And I did it by taking a break.  I ate in excess. I ate lots of restaurant food with all the hidden Calories. I did not track every bite.  In fact, one day, I didn't track at all.  And what did I get?  A 4.2lb GAIN.

I mean, that's like, impressive. Like I tried hard to gain that much weight.  Obviously not all of it is fat, but still, WOW.

Full disclosure: it is also PMSing time.

But let me tell you, the gain has motivated me to try hard to get back on track.  

So has deciding to be totally honest here on this blog about it.  I felt ashamed and wanted to skip this week's Weigh-In Wednesday post.  But that's contrary to the whole idea of this blog.  Going public, good or bad, is what will keep me going. 

In addition, I don't really have any cravings left.  My cravings now are actually vegetables and salmon, so I'm ready to eat more healthily.

There is some actual support for taking a diet break.  There are so many, I trust you can google them yourself.  But my favorite bit of reasoning (rationalizing?) is psychological.  When you intentionally go on a break, your diet is better off in the long run.  If you're in control, you acknowledge you are not going to 'diet' or UNFATTEN for a period, and it's not too hard to refocus and continue on with the long term goal.  This is different from falling of the bandwagon and feeling out of control and defeated.  Then it's pretty much impossible to get back on. 

With the amount of weight I'd like to lose, I'm looking at an active UNFATTENING for the next 1 to 2 years.  SEVEN HUNDRED DAYS of UNFATTENING.  That's a lot of days!  Even though I've chosen a method of UNFATTENING that isn't very restrictive, it takes up a lot of time.  I track everything.  I fuss over how much each meal costs in terms of WW points and weigh the pros and cons of eating this over that. Can you imagine thinking about some other hobby 3-6 times a days?  I am kind of sad that this break is adding time to the 1-2 years, but if it keeps me from totally giving up, I'm allowed a break, I think.

I am not defeated.